Still no good at

blogging! Even though I think about doing it all the time! Sorry Bug~

Maybe I should just add it to my daily list of things I need to do~ I don't have to write a 1,000 words everytime I sit down!


Right now I am in the office typing and you are sitting behind me getting into all of the homeschooling craft supplies! You are so much fun!! And a job and a half to look after! You are 16 months now~ wow~ well on your way to turning two! STOP IT~~ I didn't say that you could do that~ ;)p Getting so big and learning so much! Still not a talker~ but you do understand alot! You really are super smart! You and sissy both!
Well baby cakes~ mama needs to go make dinner! Love you so much!! <3 mommy~

My dearest Kaylie Eryn

(I am so sorry that I haven't kept up on your blog or taken as many pictures of you as I did your sister.:( I hope this coming year I will get better at it! )
~ Its been a busy crazy year! Having two precious ones to take care of everyday is an amazing challenge! I love you two goofies so much! You both make every day worth waking up for!
I love you my beautiful little Kaylie! You are such an amazing little girl with all the attitude and joy you have and give! I can not believe that you are a year old today! It doesn't even seem possible! I feel like I just brought you home from the hospital and I am still trying to learn how to be a mommy to two! :) My bug~ from the moment I heard you cry~ I was so in love with you! This past year has been the most amazing year! I couldn't not have imagined it with out you! You have made our life complete! <3
I pray my precious one that you will always know how special you are to me. I love you my beautiful Kaylie Eryn~~ Happy First Birthday!! Love ~ Mommy

why is it

when I think I will do good at something I normally don't? I wanted to start a blog for Kaylie with her pics and info but I've been horrible at it! :( Life with two is so much more busy than I thought it would be! Then trying to work and keep the house together too~ its exhausting! But... life is good and I am loved!
Beautiful Kaylie bug is now 9 months~ crawling everywhere and getting into everything! Pulling herself and trying to walk! Its kinda crazy how fast shes growing up! She also finally has her first tooth! I thought that thing would never come in! Poor littles has been teething for 6 months! :) But she is doing well!
Serenity is growing like a weed and is 3 going on 30~ Sassy, crazy and emotional just like her mama! ;) Guess the mother's curse works! :) We've been working on her letters and numbers! Its a work in progress! I do plan on homeschooling her this fall! It will take alot of prayer~ but I think we'll make it! ;) <3
Life here is going well~ Ready for summer and getting out of the house! I so can't wait!

I have found a

Homeschooling blog that I am in love with! Its confessionsofahomeschooler.blogspot.com. It is awesome! It makes me very excited to start homeschooling Serenity this September!
I can't believe that she will be 4 this year and ready to start schooling! It sometimes feels like just yesterday I found out I was pregnant with her! She is such an amazing little girl even though we spend half the day driving each other nuts~ which should make for an intresting home school experience! ;) We feel though that this is where God is calling us so we will do everthing in our power to make it happen! I am really looking forward to it!

the New Year

is quickly approaching! I can't believe that this year has gone by so quick! Ren had her surgery in January and is doing okay. Still getting infections but not near as bad as there were a year ago! I thank God every day for that fact! New baby in May~ Kaylie is doing perfectly! Serenity simply adores her little sister and is constantly giving her kisses and hugs! :) At seven months she rolls over, talks up a storm and is trying so very hard to crawl and pull herself up! She is beautiful and such a happy joyful baby! Serenity also go glasses this December! She looks so beautiful in them! I really hope they help her! :)
Curtis and I celebrated our fifth wedding anniversary in August. Its been an amazing five years and I can't wait to see what God has planned for our life in the next five and many many more! ;) I am more than blessed to be able to call him MINE! He works so hard to provide for me and the girls, he is the greatest! I love him so much, and even more with every passing day! I am so glad I don't have to find out what my life would be life without him!
Then there is the holidays that have come and gone already! Christmas was fun! Ren tired to take all of Kaylie's toys along with the ones she got! It was funny! The kids were spoiled rotten by both sets of grandparents! I love that they spoil them rotten, I just have to try to find a spot of all the spoiling! ;) I love that the girls have grandparents that love them like the world and want to spend time with them. I loved/ love having my grandparents around and all the memories I have from growing up with them~ I love that my girls will have this too!

While I sit here thinking about how amazing this past year has been, I also can't help but think about what the coming year will be bringing! I worry about all the uncertainties and challenges that will come with it~ but I don't want to dwell on those! I know that every day is a new opportunity to live, laugh and love with all that I am. I know that my God hold the future in His hand~ I am in His hand, surrounded in His unfailing love!
I know that my husband will continue to love me and support me and our girls. I know we will do whatever we can together to make our girls happy and feel loved. I love knowing that the only thing that will take him from me is if God calls him home! He is my best friend and I feel safe with him!
I know that my family (families) will be there to encourage us, support us in anyway the can and I love having them be in our lives!
So God whatever 2011 will be bring into our live~ My prayer is that we will give thanks to you everyday for everything you do for us!
Thank you for this amazing life you have given me! I am more than blessed!

tonight I can't sleep....

I was so tired all day that I just kinda lazed around and didn't get much done. Then when I got ready to go to bed~ the energy showed up.
Just sitting on the couch looking at pictures from different photographers in the area~ crying at how beautiful they are. Silly I know~ but I don't have that and I want it so bad. Just a group of pictures that are so beautiful they bring tears to my eyes. I do have some good pictures though~ mostly of my amazing girls. Which I am fine with~ I guess it all boils down to not having the 'perfect' engagement/wedding pics that people have these days. As lame as it is~ that's what I want. Didn't get it because I wasn't going to pay $3000 for pictures when my whole wedding only cost $5000! But a lesson I have learned and will tell everyone including my two girls is you don't want to skimp out on the pictures! They are and will be worth every penny~ I learned that the hard way! Oh well!
Back to looking at pictures and hoping someday I will get to do the beautiful bride shoot! ( need to lose a lot of lbs and maybe I can get in it for our 10 year anniversary!? lol~~)

Up early after a feeding....

and I can't seem to go back to sleep! Sometimes thats the case like today, but others I have no trouble going back to sleep! I do love however when I can not go back to sleep the peace and quite of a sleeping house! :) My girls and hubby are fast asleep in their beds and I can sit out on the couch ( when we have a laptop) and just listen to the silence! If I didn't love sleep so much I could see myself doing this everyday! Maybe even going to the gym so bright and early too! HAHA!
Went to the obgyn the other day for my yearly appointment and well lets just say the weigh in part was a nightmare! I really need to lose my baby weight! Its easier said then done for me! I love food! and I like being lazy! I get so exhausted chasing around and taking care of two little ones and taking care of the house~ That when I get 5 min to breathe, I would much rather grab a Mt Dew and a reese and veg on the couch and watch tv. But that has to change! I don't like the way I look or feel! I am tired all the time and grumpy too! :( I wish I could magically snap my fingers and the weight would just jump off! I am sure I am not the only one who feels this way! But anyway~ I think I am going to try Weight Watchers again starting in January! Because lets face it, starting now through the holiday days is just plain silly! ;) I hope it works this time around! But we shall see!
My hubby's alarm is going off so I guess I better go jump in the shower before he gets up! He always hits the alarm a few times before getting out of bed so I have time! lol~
Hoping today will be a good day and that I will get lots done! :)