the New Year

is quickly approaching! I can't believe that this year has gone by so quick! Ren had her surgery in January and is doing okay. Still getting infections but not near as bad as there were a year ago! I thank God every day for that fact! New baby in May~ Kaylie is doing perfectly! Serenity simply adores her little sister and is constantly giving her kisses and hugs! :) At seven months she rolls over, talks up a storm and is trying so very hard to crawl and pull herself up! She is beautiful and such a happy joyful baby! Serenity also go glasses this December! She looks so beautiful in them! I really hope they help her! :)
Curtis and I celebrated our fifth wedding anniversary in August. Its been an amazing five years and I can't wait to see what God has planned for our life in the next five and many many more! ;) I am more than blessed to be able to call him MINE! He works so hard to provide for me and the girls, he is the greatest! I love him so much, and even more with every passing day! I am so glad I don't have to find out what my life would be life without him!
Then there is the holidays that have come and gone already! Christmas was fun! Ren tired to take all of Kaylie's toys along with the ones she got! It was funny! The kids were spoiled rotten by both sets of grandparents! I love that they spoil them rotten, I just have to try to find a spot of all the spoiling! ;) I love that the girls have grandparents that love them like the world and want to spend time with them. I loved/ love having my grandparents around and all the memories I have from growing up with them~ I love that my girls will have this too!

While I sit here thinking about how amazing this past year has been, I also can't help but think about what the coming year will be bringing! I worry about all the uncertainties and challenges that will come with it~ but I don't want to dwell on those! I know that every day is a new opportunity to live, laugh and love with all that I am. I know that my God hold the future in His hand~ I am in His hand, surrounded in His unfailing love!
I know that my husband will continue to love me and support me and our girls. I know we will do whatever we can together to make our girls happy and feel loved. I love knowing that the only thing that will take him from me is if God calls him home! He is my best friend and I feel safe with him!
I know that my family (families) will be there to encourage us, support us in anyway the can and I love having them be in our lives!
So God whatever 2011 will be bring into our live~ My prayer is that we will give thanks to you everyday for everything you do for us!
Thank you for this amazing life you have given me! I am more than blessed!

tonight I can't sleep....

I was so tired all day that I just kinda lazed around and didn't get much done. Then when I got ready to go to bed~ the energy showed up.
Just sitting on the couch looking at pictures from different photographers in the area~ crying at how beautiful they are. Silly I know~ but I don't have that and I want it so bad. Just a group of pictures that are so beautiful they bring tears to my eyes. I do have some good pictures though~ mostly of my amazing girls. Which I am fine with~ I guess it all boils down to not having the 'perfect' engagement/wedding pics that people have these days. As lame as it is~ that's what I want. Didn't get it because I wasn't going to pay $3000 for pictures when my whole wedding only cost $5000! But a lesson I have learned and will tell everyone including my two girls is you don't want to skimp out on the pictures! They are and will be worth every penny~ I learned that the hard way! Oh well!
Back to looking at pictures and hoping someday I will get to do the beautiful bride shoot! ( need to lose a lot of lbs and maybe I can get in it for our 10 year anniversary!? lol~~)

Up early after a feeding....

and I can't seem to go back to sleep! Sometimes thats the case like today, but others I have no trouble going back to sleep! I do love however when I can not go back to sleep the peace and quite of a sleeping house! :) My girls and hubby are fast asleep in their beds and I can sit out on the couch ( when we have a laptop) and just listen to the silence! If I didn't love sleep so much I could see myself doing this everyday! Maybe even going to the gym so bright and early too! HAHA!
Went to the obgyn the other day for my yearly appointment and well lets just say the weigh in part was a nightmare! I really need to lose my baby weight! Its easier said then done for me! I love food! and I like being lazy! I get so exhausted chasing around and taking care of two little ones and taking care of the house~ That when I get 5 min to breathe, I would much rather grab a Mt Dew and a reese and veg on the couch and watch tv. But that has to change! I don't like the way I look or feel! I am tired all the time and grumpy too! :( I wish I could magically snap my fingers and the weight would just jump off! I am sure I am not the only one who feels this way! But anyway~ I think I am going to try Weight Watchers again starting in January! Because lets face it, starting now through the holiday days is just plain silly! ;) I hope it works this time around! But we shall see!
My hubby's alarm is going off so I guess I better go jump in the shower before he gets up! He always hits the alarm a few times before getting out of bed so I have time! lol~
Hoping today will be a good day and that I will get lots done! :)

Today I actually have

a few minutes to breathe! I hate that I started this blog and was so sure I would keep up on it because well being a mom of two you have a ton of time for breaks! HAHA! I am just thankful for the days when their nap time are at the same time and I can actually write! I really do need to start taking time out of my day for me to just be me~ not wife or mommy or off to the rescue for something else but just me. Ok now that thats over~~~~~ on to whats been going on.
Little Kaylie is now (well almost) 6 months old! Sitting up, saying 'dada', eating foods and cereals. She is getting so big and so beautiful. :) She is so much fun and happy all the time! I love it!
My other daughter is acting more and more like a teenager every day! It makes me sad because in well in 10 more years she will actually be one! Yikes~ I think I maybe getting ahead of myself a bit! But it is going TO FAST! I wish I had a pause button because even though Ren can drive me up a wall- she is still my beautiful, independant, hyperactive, smart baby girl! I am going to miss this age so much and I wish I would tell myself to shut up when I hear 'I can't wait for you to......' come out of my mouth. But I don't I just go on with my day!
My hubby has been working non stop it seems like. He is amazing and I have no idea where I would be with out him! I am truly blessed to be his wife. I thank God everyday for blessing me with him! :) I am praying that once we get our tax return back, he can quick working so hard! But we gotta pay the bills and that cost money! ;/ We do miss him when he works late, but he soaks up all the time he can with me and the girls when he gets home! He is a great daddy and husband! We are truly lucky to have him!
Thats about it from over here~ Hoping I won't go another 2 months without writeing something but the holidays are coming up! ;)

Nights like this are

really annoying! I took a great nap this afternoon, and I was still tired and ready for bed. As soon as I get comfy and fall asleep, guess who wakes up and doesn't want a passy! Kaylie bug- I love you to pieces, but mama needs her sleep! I must have slept long enough that now I am no longer tired and I have to wait to get tired again! I am also a little hungry! I would go grab something to eat out of the kitchen, but the hubs is sleeping on the couch tonight due to bad allergies! I don't want to wake him, because I'm such a nice wife! ;)
So I am just sitting at the computer waiting for pics to upload to snapfish so I can order some pics of my beautiful baby girls. We need new pics around the house!
Trying to get the business bills/payroll in order and personal bills in order too! That's a chore! But like I always say someone has to do it! And thinking I wish I had a free maid to clean my house, wash the dishes, clean the bathroom and do the laundry! I am sure every mom has felt that way at some point! I could really use a vacation and a week off from everything! Maybe one day!?

just some pics along the way

I am apparently

a horrible blogger! Its been over a month since the last time I wrote anything on here! They say that you don't document the second one's life as well as you do the first. I am so starting to see that! Poor Kaylie monster~ I know you don't have as many pictures as sissy did at this point and my blog for you isn't as good up to this point as her's is! Mommy is sorry and I will try to do better! I promise! :)
So-- I am a working mom with two kids ( 3 if you count the hubby- and at times he is just a big kid!) I am so lucky to have him on my side though! I have no idea how the single moms do it! I pray that they each have an amazing support system whether it be friends or family! I know that if I didn't have my family to help out- my three year old would be taped to a wall! While I love her more than life itself, she can be a lot to handle! ;)
I am trying so hard to handle working, raising a family, taking care of a house, and still try and take care of me! So if you read this and have any suggestions- I am all ears! ;)

I honestly love being a mom. Though all its trials, late nights, early mornings, blood, sweat, and tears from both parties- its a beautiful amazing challenge that I wouldn't change for the world. ;)

~~ Kaylie's baby dedication is Sunday, with family over for lunch afterwards. So today is all about cleaning and getting things ready. Good times. SOO glad that I will have my amazing hubby here to help! And that the kids Nana is taking them for awhile! I hope I will actually clean instead of take a nap! lol~

~~ sigh~~ My life is blessed~

growing and growing

I do believe that Kaylie has hit a growth spurt today! Super fussy, eating about 5 oz every 2-2.5 hrs. Its been a day! And to top it all off Ren got another UTI today. Took her to the Dr. and they put her on meds. Hoping these meds work and soon she isn't super sick which is good, but she is fussy too!

Kaylie has her 2 month well baby tomorrow so that means she will be getting some shots! :( I hate it~ I will probably cry! I did when Ren got hers!

Well I have survived another day~ Only with Gods help! ;)

sometimes I feel

Like being an adult sucks! I do love being married and having my kids~ but having to pay bills and live paycheck to paycheck that part just sucks! We are doing what we can to try and save money, and get ahead but something always comes up! Or money doesn't come in for where I work and then I don't get paid and well there goes more money on the credit card just so we can buy gas and groceries. Life as an adult is really stressful!
I watch my girls and miss the days of being able to play all day and not have a care in the world! When I was safe, protected, cared and provided for and I too didn't have a care in the world. I am still safe, protected, cared and provided for by my husband and his willingness to work two jobs to make sure all those this happen and keep happening! I am blessed that he will do these things to keep our children sheltered, feed, and clothed. Really what more can I ask for?
I'm just tired for worrying, being stressed, and really just tired of being tired. But I guess thats all part of growing up! Thats Life! I just better get used to it!

Its one of those nights

Where my brain won't shut off. I keep thinking about anything and everything. Bills, the girls, my hubby, our house, the things wrong with our house, bills, my friends, my families, ect.......
I wish things would just get better, we'd have no more bills and life would just be grand! lol~ Am I dreaming or what?!
I know that God will supply our every need~ not wants but NEEDS~ I know that we will never go hungry, we will always have a roof over our head and food in our bellies, so what more could I really ask for! Everything past that is a want! I don't need the Internet or cable~ I don't need a new car or van~ I don't need a ton of new clothes and my girls don't need them either. But I want to be able to get on line and have something to entertain with~ I want to look nice and for my kids to look nice too! I want to have a van or larger car so that I can haul everyone around! But those are just added bills which then I turn around and stress out about!
But this is life~ Bills, and working to pay them off! I wish it weren't so, that my hubby wouldn't have to work so much and he could be here with us, with me~ watching our beautiful girls grow up! Life is also what you make of it with the little time you get~ When he is home he helps me out so much! He spends quality time with the girls! We are so lucky and blessed to have him in our lives! He works so hard to make sure our needs are met! I couldn't ask for more! <3
Hopefully venting has helped me be able to go back to sleep~ but now I have to wait for 'lil to go back to sleep! ;) I really do love my life! Even if I may be tired for the rest of it! :) lol~

Almost a month....

I seriously can't believe that Kaylie is almost a month old! It has gone by soooooo fast. She hasn't really changed much, still sleeps almost all the time. Hoping that will change soon so that I can see her beautiful eyes more and then she'll sleep at night more! :) That I can't wait for! I miss my sleep!
Over the weekend I got a schedule made up to try and stick to for the days that I am home and not working. It started this morning bright and early at 7am! Now I understand for most people that isn't all that early but for me it is! (I love sleeping! Wish I could find a job and get paid to sleep! That would be awesome! ) Anyway the schedule is as follows:

7am: wake up, feed Kaylie, get dressed, eat breakfast, wait for Ren to wake up
7:30-8: Ren wakes up, diaper change and gets dressed, eats breakfast and watch PBS or have independent playtime until 10 am
8-10: I- clean up breakfast dishes, start laundry, clean up living room, clean girls rooms, or drag them all out to run errands if needed
10-11:30: Feed Kaylie, snack time for Ren, go for walk if nice out or craft/ learning time. Or maybe even both! :)
11:30: lunch prep
12pm: Lunchtime
12:30: Clean up lunch, wash dishes & clean kitchen, Ren playtime- outside if nice, inside with books and toys if not
1: Ren down for nap, Feed Kaylie, tummy time for Kaylie, Shower for me ( if I didn't get one in the morning) then nap or read or blog time for me!
3: Ren wakes up and snack time, playtime outside if nice or with toys and books if not
4: feed Kaylie
5: start dinner prep if needed, let Ren watch TV
6:15-6:30- Hubby home, and dinner time!
7: feed Kaylie
7:30- clean up dinner, Ren and Daddy play time
8-9: Bath time, meds, brush teeth, story and prayers, then lights out by 9pm
10: feed Kaylie, spend time with hubby
11: lights out for mama

So we'll see how this goes! There's always room for adding and taking things away! Whelp motherhood is yelling at me now so I better get off here!

Today I got a shower

granted I had to wait until nap time for both girls but its always well worth the wait! :)
I am working on creating a 'schedule' that we can try and stick to for when I am home with the girls all day that doesn't involve me turning on the TV and sticking my two year old in front of it all day! Poor thing~ and poor mommy too! We can only handle so much sponge bob! :/ I am thankful for the family and friends that have taken her to the park or just let her play with their kids so she doesn't feel ignored all day! Its a learning process for me and a big adjustment for her. We are working on it~ it does get easier, or at least that's what I keep being told!
So excited that today is Friday and the weekend is here! I'm excited to spend a weekend doing nothing! :) That will be a nice change of pace! Looking forward to it!

well its been 3 weeks and so far

I feel like I am losing my mind! But in a good way! Finally came to the conclusion that well we need a schedule~ and since today is pretty much over and tomorrow is Friday, we'll start next week! With a 2.5 year old and a 3 week old who wouldn't be losing their minds! :) But I am sooooo happy that little Kaylie is here and that I am no longer preggers! Me and being pregnant don't get along so well! Not as bad as others but still not great!
Kaylie came into this world on May 17,2010 at 11:35am. She was 8 lbs 11oz and 21 ins long! Exactly the same as her big sister Serenity! Ren love baby Kaylie to death, and I'm afraid one day she just may smother her to death! Always giving her huge kisses and hugs! Its cute but after the 30 millionth time that day its kinda old! But its been fun watching her love her sissy so much!
Learning how to live with two have been challenging to say the least. I am missing my sleep but one day in about 25 years, I will get to sleep~ maybe?! I am hoping that getting a schedule together will help out but we will just have to wait and see!
Well mother hood is calling, and the washer just stopped! I had a few seconds and so I thought I'd blog~ :)