I honestly love being a mom. Though all its trials, late nights, early mornings, blood, sweat, and tears from both parties- its a beautiful amazing challenge that I wouldn't change for the world. ;)

~~ Kaylie's baby dedication is Sunday, with family over for lunch afterwards. So today is all about cleaning and getting things ready. Good times. SOO glad that I will have my amazing hubby here to help! And that the kids Nana is taking them for awhile! I hope I will actually clean instead of take a nap! lol~

~~ sigh~~ My life is blessed~

growing and growing

I do believe that Kaylie has hit a growth spurt today! Super fussy, eating about 5 oz every 2-2.5 hrs. Its been a day! And to top it all off Ren got another UTI today. Took her to the Dr. and they put her on meds. Hoping these meds work and soon she isn't super sick which is good, but she is fussy too!

Kaylie has her 2 month well baby tomorrow so that means she will be getting some shots! :( I hate it~ I will probably cry! I did when Ren got hers!

Well I have survived another day~ Only with Gods help! ;)

sometimes I feel

Like being an adult sucks! I do love being married and having my kids~ but having to pay bills and live paycheck to paycheck that part just sucks! We are doing what we can to try and save money, and get ahead but something always comes up! Or money doesn't come in for where I work and then I don't get paid and well there goes more money on the credit card just so we can buy gas and groceries. Life as an adult is really stressful!
I watch my girls and miss the days of being able to play all day and not have a care in the world! When I was safe, protected, cared and provided for and I too didn't have a care in the world. I am still safe, protected, cared and provided for by my husband and his willingness to work two jobs to make sure all those this happen and keep happening! I am blessed that he will do these things to keep our children sheltered, feed, and clothed. Really what more can I ask for?
I'm just tired for worrying, being stressed, and really just tired of being tired. But I guess thats all part of growing up! Thats Life! I just better get used to it!

Its one of those nights

Where my brain won't shut off. I keep thinking about anything and everything. Bills, the girls, my hubby, our house, the things wrong with our house, bills, my friends, my families, ect.......
I wish things would just get better, we'd have no more bills and life would just be grand! lol~ Am I dreaming or what?!
I know that God will supply our every need~ not wants but NEEDS~ I know that we will never go hungry, we will always have a roof over our head and food in our bellies, so what more could I really ask for! Everything past that is a want! I don't need the Internet or cable~ I don't need a new car or van~ I don't need a ton of new clothes and my girls don't need them either. But I want to be able to get on line and have something to entertain with~ I want to look nice and for my kids to look nice too! I want to have a van or larger car so that I can haul everyone around! But those are just added bills which then I turn around and stress out about!
But this is life~ Bills, and working to pay them off! I wish it weren't so, that my hubby wouldn't have to work so much and he could be here with us, with me~ watching our beautiful girls grow up! Life is also what you make of it with the little time you get~ When he is home he helps me out so much! He spends quality time with the girls! We are so lucky and blessed to have him in our lives! He works so hard to make sure our needs are met! I couldn't ask for more! <3
Hopefully venting has helped me be able to go back to sleep~ but now I have to wait for 'lil to go back to sleep! ;) I really do love my life! Even if I may be tired for the rest of it! :) lol~

Almost a month....

I seriously can't believe that Kaylie is almost a month old! It has gone by soooooo fast. She hasn't really changed much, still sleeps almost all the time. Hoping that will change soon so that I can see her beautiful eyes more and then she'll sleep at night more! :) That I can't wait for! I miss my sleep!
Over the weekend I got a schedule made up to try and stick to for the days that I am home and not working. It started this morning bright and early at 7am! Now I understand for most people that isn't all that early but for me it is! (I love sleeping! Wish I could find a job and get paid to sleep! That would be awesome! ) Anyway the schedule is as follows:

7am: wake up, feed Kaylie, get dressed, eat breakfast, wait for Ren to wake up
7:30-8: Ren wakes up, diaper change and gets dressed, eats breakfast and watch PBS or have independent playtime until 10 am
8-10: I- clean up breakfast dishes, start laundry, clean up living room, clean girls rooms, or drag them all out to run errands if needed
10-11:30: Feed Kaylie, snack time for Ren, go for walk if nice out or craft/ learning time. Or maybe even both! :)
11:30: lunch prep
12pm: Lunchtime
12:30: Clean up lunch, wash dishes & clean kitchen, Ren playtime- outside if nice, inside with books and toys if not
1: Ren down for nap, Feed Kaylie, tummy time for Kaylie, Shower for me ( if I didn't get one in the morning) then nap or read or blog time for me!
3: Ren wakes up and snack time, playtime outside if nice or with toys and books if not
4: feed Kaylie
5: start dinner prep if needed, let Ren watch TV
6:15-6:30- Hubby home, and dinner time!
7: feed Kaylie
7:30- clean up dinner, Ren and Daddy play time
8-9: Bath time, meds, brush teeth, story and prayers, then lights out by 9pm
10: feed Kaylie, spend time with hubby
11: lights out for mama

So we'll see how this goes! There's always room for adding and taking things away! Whelp motherhood is yelling at me now so I better get off here!

Today I got a shower

granted I had to wait until nap time for both girls but its always well worth the wait! :)
I am working on creating a 'schedule' that we can try and stick to for when I am home with the girls all day that doesn't involve me turning on the TV and sticking my two year old in front of it all day! Poor thing~ and poor mommy too! We can only handle so much sponge bob! :/ I am thankful for the family and friends that have taken her to the park or just let her play with their kids so she doesn't feel ignored all day! Its a learning process for me and a big adjustment for her. We are working on it~ it does get easier, or at least that's what I keep being told!
So excited that today is Friday and the weekend is here! I'm excited to spend a weekend doing nothing! :) That will be a nice change of pace! Looking forward to it!

well its been 3 weeks and so far

I feel like I am losing my mind! But in a good way! Finally came to the conclusion that well we need a schedule~ and since today is pretty much over and tomorrow is Friday, we'll start next week! With a 2.5 year old and a 3 week old who wouldn't be losing their minds! :) But I am sooooo happy that little Kaylie is here and that I am no longer preggers! Me and being pregnant don't get along so well! Not as bad as others but still not great!
Kaylie came into this world on May 17,2010 at 11:35am. She was 8 lbs 11oz and 21 ins long! Exactly the same as her big sister Serenity! Ren love baby Kaylie to death, and I'm afraid one day she just may smother her to death! Always giving her huge kisses and hugs! Its cute but after the 30 millionth time that day its kinda old! But its been fun watching her love her sissy so much!
Learning how to live with two have been challenging to say the least. I am missing my sleep but one day in about 25 years, I will get to sleep~ maybe?! I am hoping that getting a schedule together will help out but we will just have to wait and see!
Well mother hood is calling, and the washer just stopped! I had a few seconds and so I thought I'd blog~ :)