Nights like this are

really annoying! I took a great nap this afternoon, and I was still tired and ready for bed. As soon as I get comfy and fall asleep, guess who wakes up and doesn't want a passy! Kaylie bug- I love you to pieces, but mama needs her sleep! I must have slept long enough that now I am no longer tired and I have to wait to get tired again! I am also a little hungry! I would go grab something to eat out of the kitchen, but the hubs is sleeping on the couch tonight due to bad allergies! I don't want to wake him, because I'm such a nice wife! ;)
So I am just sitting at the computer waiting for pics to upload to snapfish so I can order some pics of my beautiful baby girls. We need new pics around the house!
Trying to get the business bills/payroll in order and personal bills in order too! That's a chore! But like I always say someone has to do it! And thinking I wish I had a free maid to clean my house, wash the dishes, clean the bathroom and do the laundry! I am sure every mom has felt that way at some point! I could really use a vacation and a week off from everything! Maybe one day!?

just some pics along the way

I am apparently

a horrible blogger! Its been over a month since the last time I wrote anything on here! They say that you don't document the second one's life as well as you do the first. I am so starting to see that! Poor Kaylie monster~ I know you don't have as many pictures as sissy did at this point and my blog for you isn't as good up to this point as her's is! Mommy is sorry and I will try to do better! I promise! :)
So-- I am a working mom with two kids ( 3 if you count the hubby- and at times he is just a big kid!) I am so lucky to have him on my side though! I have no idea how the single moms do it! I pray that they each have an amazing support system whether it be friends or family! I know that if I didn't have my family to help out- my three year old would be taped to a wall! While I love her more than life itself, she can be a lot to handle! ;)
I am trying so hard to handle working, raising a family, taking care of a house, and still try and take care of me! So if you read this and have any suggestions- I am all ears! ;)

I honestly love being a mom. Though all its trials, late nights, early mornings, blood, sweat, and tears from both parties- its a beautiful amazing challenge that I wouldn't change for the world. ;)

~~ Kaylie's baby dedication is Sunday, with family over for lunch afterwards. So today is all about cleaning and getting things ready. Good times. SOO glad that I will have my amazing hubby here to help! And that the kids Nana is taking them for awhile! I hope I will actually clean instead of take a nap! lol~

~~ sigh~~ My life is blessed~

growing and growing

I do believe that Kaylie has hit a growth spurt today! Super fussy, eating about 5 oz every 2-2.5 hrs. Its been a day! And to top it all off Ren got another UTI today. Took her to the Dr. and they put her on meds. Hoping these meds work and soon she isn't super sick which is good, but she is fussy too!

Kaylie has her 2 month well baby tomorrow so that means she will be getting some shots! :( I hate it~ I will probably cry! I did when Ren got hers!

Well I have survived another day~ Only with Gods help! ;)

sometimes I feel

Like being an adult sucks! I do love being married and having my kids~ but having to pay bills and live paycheck to paycheck that part just sucks! We are doing what we can to try and save money, and get ahead but something always comes up! Or money doesn't come in for where I work and then I don't get paid and well there goes more money on the credit card just so we can buy gas and groceries. Life as an adult is really stressful!
I watch my girls and miss the days of being able to play all day and not have a care in the world! When I was safe, protected, cared and provided for and I too didn't have a care in the world. I am still safe, protected, cared and provided for by my husband and his willingness to work two jobs to make sure all those this happen and keep happening! I am blessed that he will do these things to keep our children sheltered, feed, and clothed. Really what more can I ask for?
I'm just tired for worrying, being stressed, and really just tired of being tired. But I guess thats all part of growing up! Thats Life! I just better get used to it!

Its one of those nights

Where my brain won't shut off. I keep thinking about anything and everything. Bills, the girls, my hubby, our house, the things wrong with our house, bills, my friends, my families, ect.......
I wish things would just get better, we'd have no more bills and life would just be grand! lol~ Am I dreaming or what?!
I know that God will supply our every need~ not wants but NEEDS~ I know that we will never go hungry, we will always have a roof over our head and food in our bellies, so what more could I really ask for! Everything past that is a want! I don't need the Internet or cable~ I don't need a new car or van~ I don't need a ton of new clothes and my girls don't need them either. But I want to be able to get on line and have something to entertain with~ I want to look nice and for my kids to look nice too! I want to have a van or larger car so that I can haul everyone around! But those are just added bills which then I turn around and stress out about!
But this is life~ Bills, and working to pay them off! I wish it weren't so, that my hubby wouldn't have to work so much and he could be here with us, with me~ watching our beautiful girls grow up! Life is also what you make of it with the little time you get~ When he is home he helps me out so much! He spends quality time with the girls! We are so lucky and blessed to have him in our lives! He works so hard to make sure our needs are met! I couldn't ask for more! <3
Hopefully venting has helped me be able to go back to sleep~ but now I have to wait for 'lil to go back to sleep! ;) I really do love my life! Even if I may be tired for the rest of it! :) lol~